Broken once, never healed
It begins to crumble, and you stumble
Desperate to hide the spidery cracks
Through which
Your secrets spilled, slipping so slowly
Tantalizingly through the tangled web of lies
Woven to conceal the torturous truth
Desperate you realize
Your confessions seem to linger in the air
Spoken words heavy on your conscience
Marked like the scars of a violent encounter
You can never forget
It replays like a broken record in your head
And you try to block out the memory
Of hearing her voice, feeling her gaze
Cling to you
Or so you imagine, so you close your eyes
And shut the door with a click but it’s
Impossible; she’s colonized every thought
In your brain
You thought admitting it would be akin
To exorcizing it but you can’t get rid of it
It simply intensifies every time you try
So you don’t
And it makes you feel dirty
But you
Just can’t
Stop